NOV 1 . . . . . . jz sad

well . . . it was about yesterday . . . but i slept early . . . so i jz write bout it today

 

wednesday . . . kinda a busy day for mi . . .

in the morning i gotta get up and go for volleyball practice on 8.30 am . . .

then in the evening i gt class in the college . . .

and in the late afternoon i gt guitar class . . .

 

actually for mi . . . all these isn't anything  tough or anything . . . but after yesterday . . . something seems to be changed . . .

 

in the morning . . . for mi i used to be quite ok wif sports . . . mi & my frenz entered volleyball for co-co . . .

but im the onli 1 who played volleyball among all of them . . .

then i tot i should be a little better or easier to 'merge-in'  or even be able to help out my frenz . . .

but after the morning . . . i discovered im not as good as i tot i am . . . im jz not . . .

then zhiwei started to become kinda angry cuz v r losing a game . . . man . . . there's a state player & 3 another guy that knows how to play . . .

while everybody else in our team was 1st time playin volleyball . . . wad do dat guy expect . . .

im not blaming anything . . . jz hope zhiWei really can control his attitude & temper . . . i now he tried . . . but he jz nid to try harder . . .

bad temper & attitude will jz make u lose everything . . . not everyont is the same . . . so try to be better . . .

 

then when in programming class . . . Mr. Liaw was teaching in front & i try to understand wad he taught . . .

the problem is im not sure dat if i realli now how to do those question . . .

ppl might tot i get a gud result for last sem . . . but actually i don't . . . subjects like programming & IT i get B's . . . and for sure dat is not enough . . .

Programming Concepts for last sem wasn't dat difficult compared to this sem . . . but still i gt a B . . .

i dunno anything now . . . i jz dunno . . .

 

after the class i had to wait for another hour till my guitar class starts . . .

the sky is looking dark so i borrowed an umbrealla from Jian . . . then it really started to rain when i was walking to the music club . . .

my pants was soaked when i reach the house . . . then i went in & waited for the class to start . . .

my tutor is David for this lvl but he's busy wif sumthing else so IS came to replace him . . .

he was really soaked as he ran through the rain to come to the class . . . so gud

there's 5 students including mi in the class . . . but only mi & wong(was in the same class wif mi too in lvl 1)

did went to lvl 1 . . . the other 2 girls & a guy had basic & came straight into lvl2 . . .

when v starts to play song i was shocked . . . i was shocked how gud these guys are . . .

mayb not really a great guitarist . . . but for sure whole lot better than mi . . .

datz when im thinking . . . " man . . . these guys are way in another lvl compared to mi . . . "

haha . . . im laughing . . . im laughing because how arrogant i can be . . .

from the test last lvl . . . i  tot im quite gud playing my guitar . . . but now . . . i know . . . i noe how little i am . . . jz how little i am . . .

after the class i told IS how i felt . . . then he jz say : " jz keep ur hardwork on ur guitar . . . "

 

then i went home by bus . . . the bus was empty . . . the driver waited the bus to be full before it start . . .

while i was waiting others to cum on the bus . . . i was thinking . . .

' im weak . . . i used to be week . . . and im still is now . . .

  i tot i grew stronger . . . mayb better in some places . . . but im not . . .

  i jz now how to use my 'mouth' . . . to talk cock & boast . . . how can this be ??

  im alwaz thinking dat life's meaningless . . . the onli thing dat keeps mi goin is my mom . . . and i nid to take care of my mom . . . datz y i study . . .

  another is my frenz . . . they keeps my life colourful . . . well . . . at least some colour . . .

  but now . . . do i still manage to really take care my mom ??

  do i manage to keep on my studies in college ??

  or will i jz be a failure ??

  wad im doin now i dont think is enuf . . . but . . . how will it be enough . . . jz how ?? '

 

then i reach home and did nothing fr the nite . . . at nite i slept at 11 something . . . early . . . way too early . . .

 

or maybe the problem is jz too early . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

 

 

 

tz been a long long time 我终于返来啦

haha long time din come back edy . . . tot let ppl delete this space jor XD

 

wuuhuuu . . . new semester luu~~

last sem get 4A's 2B's . . . nice . . . never tot to get this result . . . veri hapi

then i called my mom and asked her bout the PSP we talked about if i so fortunate . . . can get 4A's

but then she say :" 你吾系全部A先买咩"

mi                     :" 你吾系啊嘛。。。４个都吾够咩!!?"

wa . . . she wan all A onli let mi buy ar X(

but finally she agreed to let mi buy . . . yay finally a PSP WAKAKAKAKAK

be4 she hung up  she told mi :"你仲系要比D心机去读啊"

at 1st im thinking . . .wa u wan mi how wor . . . 4 oso not gud enuf meh

but thining bout it now . . . man . .  i do nid to study harder . . . in order to do wad i nid to do

take care of my mom . . . after dat i can die jor ^^ then it will kinda like 功成身退

 

now a new sem started . . . still not yet start to think bout studies . . . after Deepavali . . . sure will starts . . . u have my words

then i wanna help zhang jian oso . . .if manage . . . but i oso duno ok mou . . .hope ok la . . . then every1 will be hapi ^^

 

today 31st October . . . last day of October . . .

Jennifer geh birthday . . . at here wish her a HAPI BURFDAY . . .

wa many ppl birthday leh this few weeks . . .

buy present oso will buy till pokai . . . =.="

 

datz all for now . . . please send my warmest regards to all at home . . . long time din say this ^^

 

 

 

I finally discover how stupid i can be

It was 18th April . . . around 6 in the evening . . . i went to Sri Maju Bus Station wif william n his mom . . . v r heading to KL . . . and while we were waiting there . . . then v found out tat Fi n her mom n . . . errr . . . sum1 related to her la . . . were goin to KL too . . . n we were on the same bus . . .

Our bus shud arrive at 6.30 . . . but then the staff there told us to hop on to another bus . . . huh?!!! y the heck shud v go on another bus while v shud be on the other bus . . . ( dun mind wad i say back there * i cant even understand myself ) the ppl theredin tell us y n jz callus to get in . . . man . . . i felt like v were goin to be taken away n sold to other countries . . . mummy!!!!

It was realli boring on the bus . . . i mean MAJORLY REALLY !!! half way through our journey . . . william took my phone . . . to sms . . . at first he send stupid things to many ppl . . . ( hi how r u . . . . im fine . . . take care . . . convey my love n regards . . . sumthing like dat . . . ) then he started to chat wif those who reply . . .
theres 1 reply that made mi laugh . . . its Jennifer . . . she asked who am I ( due to my phone no. ) then william asked her to guess n she replied im sum1's gf . . . -_-" . . . o lord . . .

And theres another 1 tat doesnt make mi laugh . . . it was meiSeen . . . she tot it was mi n william chatted wif her tolking sumthing tat i wont normally . . . then i slept . . . when i wake up i look at the msgs and . . . i duno wad to say ( jz kinda realized sumthing dat sumthing is still goin on ) . . . then i took back the phone n told her it wasn't mi . . . she replied . . . 'o datz y   itz not like u sending msgs like dat' . . .

V stayed for a nite in william's relatives house . . .  n went to Nilai Inti International College the nex day . . .  wow the place is realli quite sumthing . . .  big   nice  better than TARC to b honest . . . then Nicholas came by n helped william to fill the forms etc. it was around 2 when v finished . . . v then headed back to KL n went to TimesSquare . . . william bought sum cloths in Samuel&Kevin while i too bought a cloth & a belt . . . sumthing i wouldn't do usually . . . who will tot i can buy cloths when out in KL . . . then v gt up to monorail n went to 茨厂街 . . . walk walk walk . . . then walked to the Pudu bus station . . . man i hate tat place . . . well mayb hate is a strong word for dat . . . i jz dun quite like sum ppl there . . . they alwaz ask u where u r goin  want to buy tickets n stuff . . . tat cool but wad i dun like is those rude ones . . . those who grab ur hand or stand infront u blocking ur route . . . those wad make mi wanna kik them . . .

then when v asked for Sri Maju bus . . . they say all full untill 8 o'clock bus . . . wa wait 2-3hours meh . . . v then asked for other bus . . . n 1 said their bus will stop at Medan Kit so v bought 3 tickets . . . then v wait wait wait . . . william went to toilet n when he came back he told mi sumthing funny . . . ' Jz now i guy ask mi where im goin . . . then i shake my head n wanted go keep goin . . . then he grab my hand & ask again . . . & i answered " im goin to TOILET " then the man reply " ooo . . . go la . . . " '  HAHAHAHAHAHHKAKAKAKA william jz did wad i meant to do all those time . . . while v sat there waiting for the 7 o'clock bus . . . i suddenly discovered sumthing very important . . . and this is the reason y i write here to day . . .standby everyone !!!!

I SUDDENLY DISCOVERED TAT I LEFT MY SPEC IN WILLIAM"S RELATIVE HOME ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
how stupid can sum1 b . . . tis stupid ..............................................................................................................................
aih . . . i took off my spec this morning to put on my contact lens . . . but then i forgt to take backk my spec . . . how brilliant is dat action . . . aih duno when can take back my spec . . . now im using my duno standard wad use de spec to c things . . . wa itz better not to wear anything AR !!!!!!! my mom told mi to make a new one & im getting one on Monday

while we went back william took my phone again & sms wif meiSeen again . . . i slept for almost the whole time . . . tatz all i guess . . . now u all know how stupid i am . . . I do know im stupid but i dunoo how stupid . . . but when i know how stupid i am . . .  it sucks . . . and sumthing tells mi im more stupid than i think i am . . . IN CONCLUSION . . . IM VERY STUPID ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !  ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Weird....Kinda nice

Long time since i came back here . . . . . . . . ..

Yesterday i had a dream . . . Im not dat kind of alwaz having dream person . . . i seldom have dream when i sleep . . . this time itz bout my DAD

in the dream my DAD came back to us . . . nothing much was said . . . jz mentioned dat he cum back n live wif us again . . . man!!! am i overjoyed or wad . . . then duno y v were all in the car . . . and my DAD was driving it . . . I sat beide him & I saw his hand . . . i was thinking to touch his hand . . . itz been a realli long long time since i held him . . . even though when hes here . . . but then i stopped . . . i was thinking " hey now he is back wif us . . . I can hold his hand anytime I wan now . . . so dun touch him when hes driving "  And after tat thought  i woke up from the dream . . .

wad a dream . . .

i told my MOM bout the dream ( she alwaz dreamt bout my DAD ) . . . she said whenever she tried to touch my DAD in the dream . . . eventually she'll wakeup . . . i wonder y


o boy . . . cant sleep whole night . . . i slept on 2 sumthing . . . then i woke up in 3 sumthing . . . then i jz cant get any sleep . . . jz lying there listening to 988 . . . then i got up at 6 . . . and chatted a while wif  odmqdtrg ( a fren from a HK forum ) OO jz came back afterplaying mahjong wif his fren . . . realli no nid slp de ppl . . . then i rmb the blogging thingy here . . . so i jz write sumthing down . . .

NOw im goin to take a bath and im goin to 1st garden later . . . to play basketball . . . bb la